am i choose the wrong way????

i am exhausted, i do not know whether i choose the wrong way or the right way totake my extra subjects in STPM....the extra subject is Mathematics S......first my school senior teacher....call me must take a approved from my outsider tutor and tomorrow must pass to him and i feel so stress....how could this can happen???he should tell me earliest not the last minutes days......foolish....then later i saw my ex-phyics teacher....she asked me why i take extra subject then i answer back tis is because i want to enter the public university and then the chances is very low for me if i do not take extra subjects....then she asked me other question......your SPM add maths got what gred??? then i answer i got D then she said WHAT!!! D..... i advise you mean me not to take mathematics S and is better not to take any extra subject.....i heard this answer...so harmful...my heart was so pain and broken....why i can't take.....i asked to myself....and then she told better think probably....then i said ok then later i asked her again...i got a friend also take same subject with me so he also mustdrop too then my teacher answer he take extra subjects never mind cause he is the top students in SPM.....then i just go without saying thank you....i feel like not fair....why top students can take but i'm not the top students i can't take....i already think so many times until the end of the day......what should i do.....should i just follow her advise or just continue for my taking extra subjects....i really dunno what to do....and then i told my mom about this but she just said ok and inot even advise me should i continue take or not.....i really fed up should i continue or not....i feel dizzling thinking of this....god please bless me....pls guide me what shoul i do????

my public speaking

my public speaking that held on thursday at the morning assembly make me so scare.....do u know that i am shaking and sweat when i spoke...oh my god.....a milion of eyes looked at me only.....this make me so scare and nervous until i forgot one paragraph......suck me.....i should be cool down and and hope that i will remember all but however i am so dissapointed of myself......anyway my friends told me that i already try my best and done a good job...but i want the very best.....but probably i so long did't go up to stage to give my public speaking since form 5.....i still remember when i was in form 5 i also nervous but not so nervous like on that day.....oh my god....however, i got a new experince....my horrible public speaking......

busy boy

being busy for the whole week until i forgot to write any blog....i remember the last blog that i wrote is on last two weeks......many things happen through the week.....my public speaking will held on next thursday i feel so nervous.....i hope that i can skip this public speaking and at the same time this is impossible to skip coz this is compulsory for all form 6......my MUET exam is around the corner n probably will be in April 28 after my school sport day.....i hope that i jz can go it only one time and hopefully can got at least minimun band 4......dear god, please bless me.....another things is probably i will get a lack holiday during Chinese New year.....probably just only i can got at least 4 days off include Saturday and Sunday.....besides that, i seem like regret something....what suppose i regret....i fill the STPM form and i tick Maths S.....i afraid that i will fail the Maths exam...i should drop the Maths and take another subject such as History or Malaysia Language....stupid fellow of me.....dear god, pls bless me about this problem too.....last but no least, i feel lazy to study and go for tuition that held on saturday and sunday....saturday is quite ok for me but sunday i'm so lazy to go.....haiz....that means in a week i hv to study from monday to sunday....at least last time sunday i can get a rest.....poor of me....finally, i hope that god will bless me everytime and give me some of clue to solve any problems that i can't solve it..............

already a week in school

already a week in school and i feel not so happy around in school....why?? this is because i always feel bore and sleepy when every class held......i feel like i am regret to enter form 6, i should enter diploma or foundation course.......furthermore, i feel like no mood to study.....always think when is STPM will end in my life.......anyway, lesson was started by all the subject teacher and so far i still can cope up all the syllabus except some economic that so hard to understand.....but i try to understand.....in addition this year have a lot of prefect candidates....what sould i comment about this....really i will faint because of them......i am really no eyes to see....another things that i will like to share is most of my seniors be a temporily school teacher and they taught in afternoon section....so miss them ......haha....so childish am i.....anyway just wish them good luck.....
next topic is my house meeting, i feel dissapointed that i could not take any post from green house....most of my friends got it but me....just without look into it....haiz i just worried about the university qualification.....anyway i just have to pray a lot nowdays.....

the first day in school

in first day in school, many things had happened through the morning section....firstly, all the fellow students that forgot the school rules that hair should be cut short, fingernail should be short, and the pants should be not fashionable and even no school badge.....what the hell are they doing????this is simple school rules they also can't follow and some forgot.....poor mr.issac our disipline teacher......he has to cut all the boys hairs that long....so pity to him....>_< ...secondly, first day in school already has a fighting case....luckily this case can be control.....stupid students.....can't their be polite and solve it with a gentleman stail....why must use childish stail to slove their problem.....so embarssing......next, i can't believe that one of my classmates has stooped to study form 6.....she decided to choose another way to continue her studies....what wrong to her???why she stopped to study form 6???probably the reason is she afraid of my economic teacher....she already scared one students away.....anyway i also dislikes the teacher....especially her stail teaching and like to ask many many billion questions......if i can choose another way to continue my studies, i rather choose the way than study form 6 so that i no need everyday to see her face......last but not least, i feel like moody in doing every things.....i also dunno why probably thinking about my final exam i mean goverment test (STPM)....anyway, i feel stress if i think it....finally, i just want to get sucess in my STPM and hope that during all days in school hope that all the things that i done can be done in happy and with open heart moment....just wish me good luck...^_^